I am currently writing this post sat on my boyfriends bed while he plays video games and also after having a little heart-to-heart with my best friend.
Over the past two years, I’ve grown to become such a different person that who I once was, both for the bad and for the good. This post is just a little motivation for you, yes you reading it right now, that if you set your mind to it, you CAN do it. Cheesy, I know, but after all it’s true.
Two years ago I’d just finished my A Level exams, and by that time I was relieved; not just because they were over, but because I knew that the months of stress, breakdowns and emotional trauma were over. That may or may not to you be exaggerating, but I was so brought down by A Levels that I was close to doing something that I’d probably now regret. However, after not getting good grades in my exams (BDD in Media, Law and Applied Sciences respectively), I decided that I shouldn’t let my college years run away and end up as badly as I thought they could be. So I decided to go back.
GO BACK? You’re mad. Yep. I looked through my college’s prospectus and, under the assumption that I could only receive free education for an extra year, I almost decided to take a photography course. When I went into the college to decide what I was doing, they told me that I could enrol on a diploma course that was two years because I’d already applied for the course before I was 19. And so, I became a BTEC Media Production student for two years. Here’s some advice that I learned along the way:
Once you’re in a routine, everything falls into place:
Back in A Levels (ew), I would always leave homework or exam revision to the last minute. I did that in school. I breezed my GCSE’s with barely any revision at all, but A Level’s are entirely different. Starting on my new media course, I told myself that I need to do any assignments that I was given the first night that I was handed them. Or relatively close to that. DO NOT LEAVE ANYTHING UNTIL THE LAST MINUTE. I plead that you don’t do this. You will feel so much more emotionally better after doing work the day it’s handed to you, than you will at 3am the morning of the deadline. I know it’s a hard routine to get into, but once you’ve done it for a month or so, it becomes natural. (Also, you get satisfaction from watching everyone else panic the night before).
Your independence is key:
Of course some projects aren’t just for one person, but remember that it’s YOU that is getting through daily struggles, and it’s YOU that only truly knows yourself. When you go to uni, the only person you can rely on is yourself. My mum spoon fed me for most of my life, up until now actually, and although she let me experience freedom like normal, she still did washing and cooking and cleaning (thanks mum luv u long time). I’m almost at the end of spending a week with my boyfriend, and I’ve done all of the cooking. Usually it would be my mum doing that but I’ve realised that I have to be the one taking charge. Learn to cook, learn to fix shelves, learn to understand cars, learn to do something that’ll help build your independence.
It really doesn’t matter what other people think:
I used to be the type of person that cared about what everyone had to say about me. With my dry, sarcastic and negative sense of humour, that obviously didn’t go down well. However, the people that don’t mind are the ones worth keeping as friends. I met two during my college course, they’re now my closest friends. Em (who runs this blog with me) and Annie. I guess I still kinda care what people think about me, after all, my reputation and how liked I am may help me in my career. Throughout my college course, most of the grading was how well you worked as an individual. This helped my personal development, and understanding that the only person that I need to worry about is myself. This isn’t me saying ‘every man for himself’ but sometimes you have to realise that you’re the most important, and if you have to make a decision that could jeopardise your wellbeing or safety, think twice.
Big steps, big future:
This is the most important thing for me. Two years ago after getting my A Level results I thought ‘nope, I’m not gonna go to uni, I’ll just make up for it in work experience and go full time in my current job and become loaded’. No, it doesn’t work like that. I had that in my mind the summer after finishing my exams. So now, two years on, I’ve just finished my two-year media course and come out with D*D*D* (aka the highest grade possible), I’ve quit my job, and in September, I’ll be heading to uni to study Film. Take those steps to become a better person, and you’ll feel much happier about it. If you’re scared, realise that in life you should take these big steps, and it could lead you anywhere.
Do what makes yourself happy:
Cheesy? Yes. Using that as an excuse not to take the advice seriously? No. If you have to make a choice between making yourself happy or putting yourself through pain just for the benefit of someone or something else, think again. My job didn’t make me happy anymore, but I chose to stay in it for a lot longer because I needed the money. After speaking to my mum about the situation, she understood and a couple of weeks ago I finally quit. I realised then that I had to do things that made me happy, not just making other people happy and suffering in the long run. If you make the decisions that are right in your own opinion, you may really and truly feel happier.